Why are the paths that have been laid out for us so full of distractions and bad easy choices?
Why cant they just jump out at us and when they are right, why do they have to act like 5 year olds and make everyone of them look innocent and correct.
With School for example, I was able to see that staying at home, would literally cause me to kill myself in the first couple of months. Only because, my mother and I love eachother and hate eachother at the EXACT same time. We fight, bicker, and cause eachother sever migranes. I honestly believe i have my time in the month because of the arguments we have....SOO STRESSFUL!
But to live on campus for a year is close to 4,000$ which is absolutly insane. So my amazing mother offers me a choice either i can live on campus and she's more than willing to pay, or i can live at home for free and my mom will buy me a nice cheap car and the first year of insurance. Basically i can come home to eat and sleep and do w.e......Beautiful eh?
As of now tho, i am realising that this offer is like a Veenus Fly Trap..to a fly it looks like a beautiful flower and will go and rest on it, till the trap SHUTS right on top of it.
I am the fly, and the car is the fly trap. If i take the car, im stuck living at home, where me and my mom want to kill eachother everyday. and i honestly dont know how i will manage.
Its a debate, but ill honestly not be home EVER when i have my car. so it really doesnt matter, and i get the best of both worlds......right?
