life.

I started at this school with the intent on God working in my life and i getting stronger in my faith with him. Because that is why i felt i was called here for.
That is true in a sense, but another reason i have found that he called me to this school, is for the amazing people that i am surrounded by.
They have made my life, so amazing that i cant even imagine what i would do without them :)
Of course there were the people who came into my life and made it a huge roller coaster but now that that is over i can get back to the people who i care about deeply and want to be around every minute of every day :)

God you are a mighty god, thank you for saving me and bringing these amazing people into my life!
it is such a blessing to have them! <3

Me, Jodi, Amanda

what are we?

Dont you hate that question?

are you friends or not

are you dating or not

are you girlfriend/boyfriend or not

its horrible. I hate not knowing what i am with someone.

I like the feeling that someone likes me and goes out of their way to be around me.

I want to feel a ring on my finger and know it is from someone who loves me and wants to be with me for the rest of my life. Not someone god tells me to be with, and peoples visions say is the person for me. God will definitly have a say and will be in the relationship...but i am going with the flow. and the flow is good :)

till then tho, i will have to read people, and figure out..

are we just friends or do you like me more than that

could you want me to date you or just to stay friends

Or should I be your girlfriend and we can turn it into everything we ever wanted..

<3

the wait is over!

So tonight was the kick-off to one of my ULTIME favorite shows.
24
It of course started off with a bang, and that got us thinking of "oh, he's dead" or "oh...he's the bad guy, working with this person" Yes...that is how semi-predictable it is..
But its amazing, because things come out of no where :)

I was so happy to be watching it once again!
(14 days untill I am 19!!! woot!)

19th Birthday! :)

From this point, my birthday is in...

17 days, 429 hours, 25789 minutes :)

yes...my birthday is a very big deal to me. i am not obsessed with it...its just...important :P

Back to it all..

everybody has been asking me,
"so how are your holidays going?" "ready for school?"
honestly, my holidays were fine, nothing special, i sat around most days and watched t.v...then had family issues on christmas eve, then christmas was great then family time on boxing day...then BAM it was over...

My whole break i would talk to people from my school who were back at home...(home which in our world means, holland or eastern canada...or even the states...) so they are all far away.
So i would scream "YES!" that i was excited to go back to school, because school is my life...and the people there are my family!

So, yes, the work will be difficult and i'll want to scream....but thats my home away from home...and im not in highschool anymore, im in college doing what i love to do, which is playing music!
:)

PLBC ftw!

Butterfly fly away

What is a relationship?

is it a love interest gotten serious? or is it a friendship?

is it just a bond between two people? or just a title?

i really don't know, and i feel as if i don't want to know.

I cant just see Mr. right coming out of thin air and saying, "hello, because you sat back and waited for me, i am here to tell you that i am the one god wants for you, lets go get our life started" ha ha... ya right. I don't want the guy I'm suppose to be with to just wait around for me, i want him to search, and search hard. I don't mean be in thousands of relationships with other girls, but have the know how that i am out there and to just live his life and know that one day our paths will cross when we are both doing something we love and we will find each other.

I don't want to sit around and wait for him, i know I'm not gunna fall for someone who just sits around and does nothing with his life. just because he is waiting for me to come around. and i know he wouldn't want to do that either.

so yes, i am going to go out and find that "one" and I'm going to have fun with my life and live it to the fullest, not worrying about oh could that be him, or could that be him.....it doesn't matter, one amazing day, i will be doing something that i absolutely adore and we will meet, that's all i can do..is wait for that day. It will be hard, but there are always tough situations in your life that make you who you are.

LIFE IS A CLIMB, BUT THE VIEW IS GREAT <3

The time has come

what would it be like if life stopped for a moment, and you were able to see every little thing going on around you.
would you examine every little piece and figure out where to go next, or would you be amazed at the wonders going on in the world at that single moment.

I'm right now having to do that, my world stops at a split second and i need to be amazed at what i have and not try to figure out if the boy who just winked at me in the mall likes me or not..
I'm looking at things from a different angle, and i am really enjoying it, being thankful for what i have and seeing the glass half full, instead of stressing out about every little crack or detail, that has NO effect on my life.

I never knew growing up would have this much effect on me....hmm, maybe I DID need a kick in the butt to get me in motion...lets pray and hope that this new grown up is here to stay...cuz she's pretty cool, if i do say so myself :)

New Years, time for a change.

This is where everyone says: I will lose weight, i will be more creative, i will take a risk. Then, in a couple weeks for most that resolution is gone.


I would like to say, i am not going to make a resolution,i am making a plan, one that has had a need to be put in place for a very long time. I do hope I stick to it, because it will help my life drastically if i can :)







In one way and out another...its a hello, goodbye kind of thing

Goodbye to stupid Boy addictions, Hello to Going with the flow.

Goodbye to facebook addicted, Hello to Great grades.

Goodbye to the christian standard, Hello to making my own standard.

Goodbye to not reading the bible, Hello to...well...reading it :P

Goodbye to relationship issues, Hello to what ever happens happens

Goodbye to calling myself fat, Hello to actually doing something about it.

Goodbye to harmful friendships, Hello to friends who keep me on my toes

Goodbye to A.C, Hello to J.C :)

Goodbye to texting soooo much, Hello to talking face to face.

Goodbye to Shy tayler, Hello to not caring what people think of me

Goodbye to clothing standards, Hello to comfort and what looks amazing on me.

Goodbye to Stress, Hello to Calm

Goodbye to obsessions, Hello to not caring

Goodbye to the old me, Hello to the new :)