Picture this:

You are walking along a bridge, It is a foggy night, you cannot see and it is so quiet that you can't hear a thing. You take a step forward and slip and fall off the bridge, but you catch the edge and you are holding on for dear life, you can't pull yourself up and you think you are going to fall off, you don't know how long the fall is, and you don't know if anyone will hear your cry's.

But all of a sudden you remember in your heart

someone telling you to listen for God's voice and trust that he will catch you. So you listen and listen but you can't hear him...and Satan is pushing you side to side, stepping on your fingers trying to get you to fall and not trust that someone is below you to catch you. You listen and listen and finally you hear a faint voice saying "let go". But you don't know where this voice is, you don't know if it is Satan saying that just to fool you...but then the voice gets louder "let go....Let Go...LEt Go....LET GO!!" finally you have the comfort to let go, and the fall is long and you are scared of not knowing what to do...but God is at the bottom, there to catch you.

Right now, I am holding on to that bridge for dear life...and i can't hear anything, but satan is trying to get me to let go and fall, either that or he's trying to keep me holding on, so i will pull myself up

. and continue and not trust god...

So much crap has been going on, and I don't know where god is, and i can see him and hear him working in everyone else's life....but not mine...it hurts so bad...and I don't know how to move forward without him.

I need to see him and hear him and trust that he is at the bottom...i can't hear from other's that he is there...i need to be told by him to "LET GO" before I can take my fingers off the bridge and do a trust fall into his arms.