confused

Sometimes I just can't breathe...

Life has a way of sneaking up on me and just covering my nose and mouth and just holding me till I pass out....I just don't know how to react.

Life is a bitch.

This week I've begun to think about what I want to do and where i want to go with my life.

Do I want to stay in Alberta, or go back home and continue my schooling...But every time I go to look at schooling options...i feel like i can't do it, and in my head I say "can I really do this? is this what I want?" and i second guess myself...

But then I remember, that i LOVE music...and want to be home with my kids when I eventually have them.

So can I do this?

Can I really do this at all?

I secretly want to go back to PLBC, and finish my degree, and feel like I achieved something...but then I remember how horrible the people were...and I scratch that from my brain.

What to do...what to do...